while eating food:
hell yassss ne regrats i feel alive nobody can stop me now
shit im so fat why did i have to do that why can't just fucking say no god what's wrong with me, etc.
What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.